The boy from yesterday...

                
Being a teenager was one of the best part of our life. It is were we experienced our firsts. Our first crush,

our first barkada, our first lip balm, our first dance,

and our first love.

I remember this boy i met at a young age. He even had a reputation for being naughty and bad.

Happy go lucky, mischievous. But what I most remembered about this boy is the way he made me feel...

He made me feel special

He made me feel loved

Despite the fact that I had a reputation of being unfriendly,

he still made a lot of effort to show me how he feels.

He told me I was his first love...

After so many years, we saw each other again...

but now we are both grown up

not young and foolish anymore

and he still made me feel special, loved

He said that his feeling haven't change

despite the years

and I believed him.

and loved him with all my heart

and all my soul.

I thought he was still that same boy

who truly loves me

only me

I thought he was still that boy

the honest boy I've known

who wants nothing is this world but me

But people changed, feeling changed and it was too late when I realized that...

He was not the same anymore

That boy was gone...long gone

and It broke my hearth into pieces

thousand of pieces

the pain was so unbearable

and confusing

How can I have loved the wrong man?

Oh God, why?

 It was hard to accept that you have loved man

a man full of worldliness...

lies and deceit

..and in the light of darkness I realized

I haven't loved that  wrong man

because every time I think about him, the face of that young boy I see

that boy  from my yesterday who had loved me truly

I haven't loved that wrong man, I have loved the right boy

But sadly, that boy was long gone..

he was just a memory

a sheer memory

and there's nothing I can do but to cry

and say good bye..

to that boy from yesterday.

FYI: This was written September 9, 2006.

Palawan Accomodation: Mercedes Bed and Breakfat

I was  uber excited regarding our trip to Palawa n that I went online almost everyday hunting for cheap but good accommodation. I stumble upon trip ad visor and i discovered about Mercedes bed and Breakfast. MBB rank number 6 among 77 accommodation in Puerto Prinsesa. So I contacted them via email and SMS. They answered all my inquires asap which I like and that convinced me to  finally book MBB.

The first thing your going to notice as you enter the place is the cute hammocks! This place is a home a way from home. Very relaxing and not intimidating as well. During night time, you can just sit, relax and breath fresh air.

 They also have a cute canteen where we used to eat daily breakfast. They served rice, egg, daing, longanisa, pork with coffee.  Free hot and cold water. The girl with a blue sando is the owners assistant. She usually the one who picks you up at the airport.

The room was spacious with nice atmosphere. we got the room with one double bed and single bed. They have clean bathroom with hot and cold shower. A small closet and flat screen tv. The place is quiet and safe.
Overall our experince with MBB was great. I reccomend this place for those who want to enjoy affordable, clean and relaxing accomodation . You can check their  website
                                                                              
                                                                 

Summer Escapade at Matabungkay, Batangas

Every year, my aunt celebrates her birthday and she usually invited us and the whole Baranggay to celebrate with her. She choose Matangbungkay  in Batangas because is near our place, affordable with a lot of activites that every one can enjoy.

Walking a long the beach, you will find affordable places to eat like andoks. There is also souvenir shops and a lot of people offering henna tatto, as in A LOT!

It was month of May so the beach was really, really crowded!  But I find that floating bamboo oh so cute and the sand is nice and soft. My aunt got two beach front rooms with air con and two floating bamboo for P11,000 pesos! I think that was a good deal.

 I don't recommend visiting this place during summer time because it was super crowded, the beach wasn't clean and people are eating while in the water! Om my gulay!

 Floating Bamboo experience

 You can cook, relax and swim in the floating bamboo.

Its time to swim.

It was hard to swim or even float on the beach because there a lot of people which you can bump into.  So what we did is just swim around our bamboo float and make a lot of photos.

Its time to eat. We had inihaw na liempo, hotdogs, pinakbet, jelly (made by mom) and chicken joy. yummy! Biko and lots of green mango and junk food.

There are a lot of activities to choose from like snorkeling, banana boat...

Pedal Boat for P200.00 per peson  which is super slow you can sleep on it and island hopping? I dont know if you can call it as island hopping because we only went on the other side of the beach which is more private.

 The other side of the beach was more like a ghost town, we didnt see anyone, only dogs! If you want to relax, do yoga then this is the place for you. The sand is more powdery and lighter, but sadly there are lots of dead coral ushered from the beach. Walking in barefoot is not recommended! 

We went back to the main beach and swim more and eat more. This place is good for family outing.
Thank you Auntie Aida

Sunset at Matabungkay Beach resort, Lian , Batangas 

Jealousy + Envy = Inspiration

 

Have you ever been jealous to someone? Been envious of the things, opportunity and life that they have? I do, sometimes I really do. But I could say that i have never been envious or jealous toward a friend or relative or anyone whom i have closed relationship with. I usually feel this to someone i don't really know, which is odd. Maybe that's the reality of it, you tend to be envious to someone you don't know coz you only see what they want you to see and you don't have an idea what's happening behind closed door.

 These feelings are natural as long as you know how to control it and let it go. But when these green eyes envy creeps deeper in your soul, it could be very damaging. Jealousy or envy  I think is one of the poisonous emotion a human being could have experience. It will make you sad, mad, angry and guilty and can definitely damage your spirit.

Whenever i get to feel like this, the first thing that  I do is to pray. I am a religious person and i have a very personal relationship with God. I talk to him everyday and I always believe in the power of prayer. I also loves to read inspiring articles. One time, when I felt so down and having this feeling of jealousy to someone an idea came to my  mind. That instead of being envious to one's success, I would like to turn my feeling into inspiration! Turn negative into positive! And i have found this great article that helped  me lot, and I want to share it to you to help you fight that green eyed monster.

How to Transform Jealousy into Inspiration

·              Vow to live a life of awareness. You cannot combat jealousy with your philosophical eyes closed to your own emotions, behaviors and instinctual patterns. The transformation of jealousy requires astute and dedicated self-examination.

·          Understand that jealousy is more about you than it is about another person. When you are jealous of a friend, for example, your jealousy has little to do with what your friend has and a lot to do with what you lack. The object of your envy is inadvertently acting as a mirror for your deepest yearnings. Thus instead of cursing those who fill you with jealousy, praise them for shedding light on a longing you didn't know existed.

·          Ask yourself directly, "What does this person have that I want for myself." Write a list that is specific and thorough

·         Grieve for what you cannot control. I have often found myself jealous of friends with reliable, loving fathers, as my own father has never been a significant part of my life. There is nothing I can do about this except cry. And so cry I must until the tears have cleansed the pain caused by this unchangeable fact of my existence. You must mourn for what you cannot control and then, in order to truly move upward, you must release it.

·           Create! Build! Develop! Receive! I may never have a reliable, loving father, but I can have a family of reliable and loving friends. I can cultivate relationships with people of all ages and sexes and seek fatherly advice from other men. I also may never be as tall    and svelte as a supermodel (or even an averaged height woman, for that matter),  but I can treat my body like a work of art with exercise, healthy food, homemade facials and flattering clothing. I may never be a multimillionaire, but I can work smart for my money, invest wisely and spend conservatively to ensure I feel stable. Do all you can to bring those things you can control into your life.

·          Trust that there is plenty of room for successful, victorious, fulfilled, beautiful people in this world. In fact, every single one of us can be successful, victorious, fulfilled and beautiful. Life is not a ladder. You needn't shove others down to move up. Life is more like a big, wide, twisting mountain path, and there's plenty of room at the top for everyone.

         
Beware that sometimes jealousy masks itself as hatred. If you find yourself gossiping, insulting or sabotaging somebody else, perhaps your motivation is hidden jealousy.

·         Appeal to your logic. You know that the grass is not greener. You know that appearances are not usually what they seem. You know that the person you are jealous of is jealous of somebody who is jealous of somebody who is jealous of somebody who is jealous of somebody. It's an endless cycle so decide not to ride.

       
Move apart from people who encourage your jealousy. Insecure people thrive when others  are jealous of them and some even work hard to ensure that everyone around     them is envious. A person who tries to make you jealous is not evolved and not worth your energy. 

     
Accept that you are perfect as you are. Sure we all have room for improvements and upgrades, but our essence, our core, the center of ourselves is divine and exactly right.

 

Bronzed Beauty( Bohol inspired look)

Touring Bohol is one of the best experienced I've ever had. I've always wanted to see the chocolates hills since i saw it in the faded books in elementary and high school. I never imagine myself that one day, I will be seeing the chocolates hills upfront and personal. It  was a dream come true. And I was inspired to do this look...using dark brown and bronzed like that lovely chocolate hills....

Start by applying foundation to your face, then set it up with  face powder.

Take a dark color brown shadow and pack it all up all over the lid. I used the L.A colors cafe lau laet

Then take a fluffy blush and sweep it back and forth, blending the color out. Make sure it is clean to avoid any hard edges.

Take your favorite liquid liner and line your upper lash line , winged it out a little bit. I love using liquid eyeliner because  it does not smudge and stays longer than ordinary eye pencil.My current favorite is Nichido liquid liner.

Now take a black pencil liner and line your water line to intensify the smokiness of your eyes.

 

and now for that bronzy glow, I applied everbilena blush called EARTH. Make a fish face(LOL) and apply the blush to the hallow of your cheeks, to your temples and the side of your jaw. Curl your lashes and add mascara.

and for the lips, I applied nude lipstick in Nichido raspberry float

Were finish! Its super easy!

If you want to take this look in night time, just apply red lipstick for that glamorous glow. I used maybelline summer sunset and F21 lip gloss.

a lipstick can make a lot of difference

Hope you enjoy this tutorial. Good luck

Review: Neutrogena Healthy skin liquid foundation

                       
                                      
 Neutrogena Healthy skin liquid foundation

This is far my favorite foundation for now.  It has satin finish and gives you a dewy look.  It has a nice, even, moderate-coverage finish that looks flawless especially if you use a stippling brush on it.  I often set it with a loose powder to lasts throughout the day. And if you want to look good on pictures…then this is a foundation for you. I used it on our field trip day and it stayed all day and I look good on picture! Really! My skin glows all day long…
Here’s the proof…
 

Cons:

I hate the packaging. This foundation needs a pump.

100 Things I want to do before I die

1. Travel to Batanes
 Photo by letsgosago
2. Take the Plunge at Danao, Bohol
3. Learn a new language
4. Watch Britney Spears  concert
5. Travel Solo
6. Bathe at the Devils Pool

7. Day Tour to the moon(to protect me from death  )
8. Visit the chocolate hills
9. Swim at Kayangan lake, Coron


10. Visit the Maria Cristina falls
11. Skydive
12. Learn to Belly Dance
13. Learn a Martial Art
14. Stay in Venetian Palace for a night
15. Ride an elephant.
16. Play with Tarsier
17. Visit the underground River
18. Become a licensed diver
19. Show my parents other countries
20. Visit Elnido
21. Become a make-up Guru
22. See penguins in Antarctica

23. Spend a week in an igloo
24. Snorkel at the Great Barrier Reef
25. Win the Amazing Race
26. Pet a kangaroo
27. Visit Baguio with my hubby
28. Become a vegetarian
29. Have my own house
30. See the Aurora Borealis in Alaska
31. Sleep in Ice Hotel
32. Fall in love
33. Explore safari desert
34. Ride a camel in Egypt
35. Do glamping with my family
36. Learn how to cook
37. Swim with the whale sharks
38. Visit Disney Land in Hongkong
39. Go Parasailing
40. Visit the taj majal
41. Spend a day in a luxury Resorts
42. Visit anawanging and Capones Island
43. Ride the yellow Submarine in Cebu
44. Attend a Festival
45. Learn how to bake
46. Sail Halong Bay in Vietnam

47. Be a mom
48. But first, honeymoon in Boracay
49. Go on a long road trip
50. Visit the universal Studio in Singapore
51. Learn how to paint
52. Experience a white Christmas
53. Eat Lechon in Cebu
54. Visit asik asik falls
55. Surf? in Baler , Aurora
56. Visit vigan, ilocos norte and sur.
57. Visit  my nephew Neo in Australia
58. Eat Pinipig de leche in Bulacan
59. Blog about my Home town(Cabanatuan)
60. Food trip in Bacolod
61. Walk the Great Wall of China
62. Go white water rafting
63. Ride a Gondola in Venice
64. See the giant pandas
65. Meet Michelle Phan:)
66. Learn to take good pictures
67. Swim with the dolphins
68. Meet Irene of inspiration from the little things
69. Visit Sagada
70. Swim in white beach, Basilan
71. Become a very good teacher
72. Shop in Tokyo, Japan
73. Visit siquijor
74. Learn HTML
75. Buy expensive makeup(Mac, Lancome etc)
76. Win a contest
77. Bungee jump in New Zealand
78. Kiss my husband in Eiffel Tower

79. Visit the movie set of The sound of Music
80. See my reflection in the biggest mirror in world, Bolivia

81. Shoe shopping at Liliw, Laguna
82. Travel with my mom, dad, and sister.
83. Witness a miracle
84. Make a difference
85. See the Taj, Majal
86. Learn how to swim
87. Spend my future child first Birthday in Boracay
88. Exercise!
89. Ride a car in Desert Safari
90. Attend INC's 100th anniversary
91. Meet Tazmanian Devil
92. Forgive and be forgiven
93. Trek Palaui
94. Camsur
95. Learn to play organ
96. Attend Highschool Reunion
97. Write a Filipino Romance Novel
98. Travel, Travel, Travel
99. Visit Jerusalem
100. Be the person God's want's me to be..